The Ultimate Fear

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that frightens us most. We ask ourselves, 'Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and famous?' Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that people won't feel insecure around you. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in all of us. And when we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

~Nelson Mandela 94'

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A Battle Within

God works in mysterious ways.....the only problem is .... i dont know what exactly he's tryna say......my subconcious aint allowing me to comprehend the play.....i'm getting hit harder everyday.......placed situations in positions that can work for or against me......i need to dig harder...but i'm pissed cause i dont know which way to lead

 

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Why is it that we tend to battle ourselve. Its hard sometime to make choices because we are so afraid of what the outcome may be. Man biggest fear is failure and so to avoid it we chose not to try at all. Sacrifices is something that everybody must make...yet we we tend to take small steps which at times bring forth nothing at all. At times we even try to reamin nuetral, taking from both side just to get a feel of it. We tend to know deep inside the path that must be taken..yet at the same time question rather or not we're making the right decision. There's nothing wrong with talking to yourself and questioning....the problem comes forth when you refuse to listen to your innerself

 

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I'm actually battling with myself because I've been placed in a situation where i must think and react critically.....lately I've been placed in situation where my prayers can de answered...the only proble is that it is not happening directly.....its happen indirectly where if i follow through it will be done. The problem is .... i do not want it done through me....rather through the natural forces of the universe

 

Still Am

Although I may come off as being a certain way, i am not here to portray the 'positive' side of me, rather the battle found within in. My anger at times may be harsh, my thoughts at times my be deep, my heart - slightly mellow - it is those that on this page I speak. Do not misinterpret the type of life i lead. This is only a glimpse..mind you i only allow you to see what i want you to see. By what you read, i may be weird, a psycho, a freak...but believe i had my fair share of the world and at this very moment is battling peace. i am one with myself yet am trying to soar beyond the plains. Yes, I do have family and friends. I tend to write in between the lines..certain post are meant for a specific eye. I attempt to do 'Me' as best as i could....but one thing i will always do right is 'I' cause that's infact the person that guides my life. i may seem like 'Me'..to satify man and remain at ease. But I will always be 'I' because its embedded in me. I had to clarify that other than these postings, i do enjoy differents forms of life. I consider myself a lost child, not due to failure (which i never proclaimed) in lfe. But a lost child beacuse i have not yet taken the ultimate flight.

Bitch - I'm Me

So it seems like time is on a mission – fucking with me – yet it’s no competition

As things seems to be - yet the truth only proves to not be reality

Who would’ve thought that life would be conducted with such false aim

Haters only pretend – bitches live in vain – true souljahs demand – and so I stand up and sing

With my eyes wide – and my grip tight – say it – I won’t – but I might – cause when the sights in the light – I’m quick to take a bite – insured – gracefully done with all my mite

You live and you learn – lesson only won – if more money is earned – so I sit here and yearn – cause I refuse to get burn – folly come at me in return – leave bitches on the run

Heart of sorrow – I have none – eternally born – pitied upon – I rather be done

As life propelled – I showed nothing but hell – intensified – yet glorified

As I look deeply in the eyes of my reflections near by - I waved it – but I praised it – as I gazed it – fuck it - I hate it – but refuse to unsave it – so I ate it

I ate it whole - devour the bitch up – caught a nut – as my cherry got bust – a reborn virgin – I do it over and over again – as if it was just another occasion

Looking in the mirror – surprise time and time again  -  at who it is that I be - that I see

No Remorse

I  know as some people may read this you may think...yeah right...what is she writing...she don't seem like she's going thru anything (correct, i'm Me) ---- So if you're not going thru anything..what is all this that you're writing.....once again it's a 100% tru yet Me..... See that's the thing...i'm complicated yet easy to follow....by just letting Me be...............saw one of my webster definition of friends today....been a minute.....needed that...u gotta understand..simplicity.......means so much to me....and once again...that's what makes me Me.....what's great about it is that simplicity recognize simplicity...much respect to all my simplicifiers.........

No Need to Blink

Damn Lord please help me right now
I'm hurting so bad to the point where I know not where I stand
Fuck, fuck, fuck  -----apprehend
I made a decision today and I don't know if I came on to strong
I'm contemplating hard which is something wrong