Carry On

I never felt so much pain in my life like the one I’m feeling right now
I feel lost, betrayed, hurt, so many things in one
I aint shed so many tears in so long
How could he do me so wrong
To just up and leave and be gone
Love give me the strength to carry on strong

Spread the news far beyond the mountain plains
Let them know that I’m in search of a way to better understand
Tired of the thoughts that keeps me up at night
To loose you .. to have you ... I’m so damn confuse
My mental is drafting up one hell of a picture
I struggle with the concepts of our last fight, can’t stand to be without -cha
None-the-less I must remember that – it – is – for the best
The misuse that was brought upon me through all the abuse
I lay my head on the pillows at night still wishing that I was with - you
Reading old love letters , thought shit would get better
Thinking we were slightly lost in this stormy ass weather
Looking up high, asking myself why, still living in denial
Time to face the image in the mirror – hear a thumping getting nearer
The rhythm to that organ in my chest – boomboom – I feel yah

I never felt so much pain in my life like the one I’m feeling right now
I feel lost, betrayed, hurt, so many things in one
I aint shed so many tears in so long
How could he do me so wrong
To just up and leave and be gone
Love give me the strength to carry on strong

No longer thinking twice, can’t say I’m steady having doubts

Ghagged the words straight up out of my mouth

Young souljah from where they call the dirty dirty south

They come and they go, must learn to never loose control

To say I was dedicated like a troll, rub my tummy, let the truth be told

I never felt so much pain in my life like the one I’m feeling right now
So I drop to my knees, it’s been a long time since I officially bowed down
I feel lost, betrayed, hurt, so many things in one
Looking up to the sky, screaming why
I thought for shit like this – by you - [ sunt ] down - ur only begotten son
I aint shed so many tears in so long
Hiding behind this shield trying to stand strong
Forgetting that “Tha Unknown” neva stands alone
How could he do me so wrong, then I sit back and listen to my own song
Taking heed to this , should’ve neva rode out to this
Swift justice is bliss, all the pain have been dismissed
The Ultimate One caused him to just up and leave and be gone
Lord - gave me the strength to carry on strong

Empowered through Faith

"With mornings filled with new beginnings and moonlit skies to wish and dream upon …. may the power of faith and the strength of hope always be there to light your way …." ~ Author Unknown

Become Aware ... Support

The "5"enses

EMOTIONALLY ... PHYSICALLY ... MENTALLY ... VERBALLY ... SEXUALLY

RISE ABOVE IT ALL

"She watched as they yelled and as they hit ... she watched her childhood fading ... she wandered when a light would be lit ... and God would decide she was worth  saving ... already they yanked from her little escape ... and hurt her with more than just words ....abuse plagued the angel God loved the most .... but accidently sent down to earth " ~ Author Unknown

I am not here to tell you how to live your life nor am I here to pretend as if everything is alright. I see the child, I heard the children, I watch them as they walk, I listen to them as they speak. The way they talk, they way they play, it's all about how they behave. Hold up, wait, if it was so easily noticed through display, why have you not taken a stand and help them be brave. Protect the young, we must remain strong. I do not blame you nor do I blame myself, it is not this type of life one would chose, a state where one is left lost and confuse. Protect the young, help the young, give strentgh to those who unnoticably failed to protect the young.

Give me strength to overcome such ways. Stand beside me as I start to loose my way. Do not hesitate to take my hand in attempt to drive me away, away from such misuse. Everything happens for a reason. Build strentgh within yourself and do not allow this to hinder you. Rise above it is what I like to shout. You are a survivor, which means you are strong and have the strength to carry on. Stand before your opponenet and shout you will not be defeated. You stood then, you stand now, no matter how many times you been striked down ... keep in mind ... at this moment u still stand. You still have a chance. Come my friend. No looking back. Hand in hand.

The videos and context that follows are mainly in consideration to the children of DV.

I think these videos are really powerful and send a really good message.

Pink and Purple Nationwide Showcase

We tend to get caught up with the way of life. We tend to throw away all of the bad memories in hope to continue on with a perfectly normal life. We tend to forget about those who are around us that may be in need of our help. We tend to forget the term 'what if that was me.' We tend to forget a lot of things if it does not directly impact us. We tend to forget a lot of things hoping to get rid of the traumatic memories because it 'do' directly impact us. One way or the other the end result is to forget. Well, lets not forget and let's support the National Breast Cancer and Domestic Violence Awareness month this October by supporting many outlets dedicated to it. Let's at least start somewhere by rocking the pink and the purple ribbon. My blog will also be dedicated to this and this only during that month, along with my Facebook (NJ). Men, keep in mind that male fall victim to BC and DV as well, so help by showing your support. Pink and Purple Ribbon .... Show that you are aware. Pink and Purple Ribbon Nationwide Showcase - Join the Event