Suicidal (1)

Show me the way to love and I'm talking about deeper than the stars above. Back then I asked the Lord to give me a reason and so He blessed me with two seeds to change how I felt about the seasons. My story is buried down to the core of this earth, can't believe when I attempted an exchange of words, alchemy was the term that came to be spoke. Paused in the moment ... now I'm somewhat fulfilled yet broken. As I drove on the pavements above ground, listening to Bone, enjoying the breeze - contemplating my state of mind - I felt elevated, floating towards cloud nine. So at ease, sweet loving Silent Melodies, I felt my spirit rise, divine tears in my eyes, looked up towards the sky to the Most High and told Him to just give me a reason why. Damn, it's time to say good-bye, I'm stronger than man. Ate so much dinner with the Devil still saying in Jesus name. Ya'll just don't understand, I refuse to be Heaven Sent. With the why, I already know how, Krai Kill, putting all fears aside, ready to commit that Suicide.

Krai ft/ Einstein (Response)

[Albert Einstein] - " Intellectual growth should commence at birth and cease only at death." / "But to me Death is only when the spirit's no longer bounded to the flesh ... from there more knowledge I will continue to collect ... forever yearning to be learning ... a sensation that exceeds any formation as the Ultimate Novation ... Life has been proclaimed to us all ... made and set forth Eternal ... spoken words from the Soul of Thy Journal ... to breathe it ... suspend it ... apprehended within it ... it's just a Time felt path ... commence to it ... I cherish it ... never cease to proceed pass the Wall of Humanity ...  forever bounded spiritually....  to gain and rise above it all intellectually." - [Krai]

Who Art Thou

Who art thou to inform I of who I am if I myself cannot determine the outcomes in life for which by I must be sought out? Stand down from this urge to help me reach my goal, for my goals are only known to the ever so tender rhythm of my soul. Shan't I be given the opportunity to live a life in misery, to dance in the rain and be destroyed by the storm? Shan't I be able to look amongst men and be tempted to shout that I've too overcame? T'was nights when my head would be among pillows and tears will drizzle down my cheecks bearing silent whispers of crying screams, for deep within me I believed I was not meant to be. Shan't I be given the opportunity to live a life of destruction, to sit in the mirror years ahead only to bring forth recollection of years that have already fade and with the power that lives beyond my flesh - scream through the top of my lungs that I have been bless. Who art thou to try to protect me from the lessons that I so desperately seek? Allow me to be me, for to me it is the only way to learn that by all means I am in fact a WELL MADE QUEEN ......

My Own

Time has no hold but life is bold so I come forth to speak what must be told b4 death even attempts to take its toll- at the moment shits may seem lost but the fact still remains- I'm my own muthaluvin boss

....And So I Ask Myself

I told myself that I will let a week go by before I write. This is not a dairy but I will release information and writings that has inspired me. I'm still battling with a very important decision (as every decision is important) but I'm actually contemplating this one. I have a friend (webster definition not mine) who lately one can tell is in deep thoughts. So far I'm inching up on Me. I've invited a few people to this page and that's why I'm here. I'm wondering whether that will make a big difference or not, in terms of how I should let my notion flow. I will give that invitation one day to circulate and then I'll erase it. Why? Because although I am here to release myself I do not want to be exploited (at least not in the beginning). I know for a fact that my mind is in the wrong place right now. Why do I say that? Well a friend (Webster's not mine) gave me a book and I read it within a week (more like 2-3 days). That book was later replaced with another one by the same person and  I have not been able to complete it and it been about 2-3 weeks. I need to get spiritually in tune.

Question of the day.....
Why is it that when we know that something is wrong we still accept it hoping for the best?
When  is it alright to have hope and is having faith deadly? (Lightbulb- i promise i will give you guys somethings interesting to read about these)