Life–Balance–Neutral

One must wake up in the morning and ask themselves what it is that they are to strive for today. Each day we must set out to do better than the day before. We may also recognize that each day have a destiny of its own and so there is no need to try to outdo yesterday since today and yesterday are two completely different days. Where am I going with this? Just sit back, read and I will tell you exactly where I am taking this.

Living in the Shadows (1.2)

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Living in the Shadows (1.1)

Time went by
The months surely fly[ed]
All that could be thought of
Was the blossoming seed that was held captive inside
Of a womb that was almost held as a tomb
The one withchild
Was crushed on one side
As the young queen, towards the opposite wing
Remained and leaned
It was that moment
Nine months in
Lady and Man
Believed it was time for the pregnancy to come to an end
JMH, where all her previous fruits been uproot'd
There they raced
And by doctors was [sunt] away

Take Me As I Am

Why do you refuse to take me as I am

Or is it just me who became lost within this film

I beg to lay my body to rest

Where the souls of the past will upon me caress

I come to you as naked as  the day I was born

My thoughts have been raped, my heart have been torn

Spiritual world, it is now to you I turn

Bathe me in the blood of my own

Cleanse me in the tears that I always shed alone

Harmonious melodies as I drop down to my knees

Begging the Skies to set me free

Took a pledge to resurrect, recalculate my path

Know not if it’s being done correct

To you I order my steps

Taking my last breathe

Bringing upon me death

Living up to the name I select’d

With respect

Cleanse me and make me whole

Before you I release my soul

Forgive me Father for I forgot what I wrote, let alone what I spoke

Broken words from a souljah that’s ready to claim her rebirth

….. here I go

Much Respect to the Most High

Searching (1)



How secrete must my world become

Respectfully I stand alone

Spiritually I remain strong

Guided by the souls that speaks to me within

Take my calmness not for granted

For I'm more than just a simple part of the creation of man .....



Psalm 23



Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I feel no evil for you are with me, your rod and your staff they comfort me
Giving me the opportunity to walk confidently, unto you I cherish thee, although tempted to live through blasphemy, questioning the art of what’s Heavenly
Today I pause to speak to you with no boundaries, so exquisitely
Masonry - as to the structure of my heart..., violently – to the way my life have been walked
Yet still I fought and to you the thoughts are brought
Infinite One, all battles has been put to a halt
Disturbed by the misuse of words, controlled by the politics of other creature’s soul
I must uphold to the stories I once told, I’m on the right road, the path is so cold
Within my dome, I’m processing the feeling of being left alone, what happened to that secrete home
Am I to set aside the way of life I so desperately wish to deny but whom outcome through mad madness I take much pride
How am I to collide and breathe through both sides, when it is what I hate to this date that fuels me - to make me great – I’m stepping on bricks held up due to fate

Habit (1)

I have a habit of being non-expressive. Attitudes displayed is either passive or semi-massive aggressive. I have a cold heart but I'm delicate to those who in my life take part. Quick to fall in love but refuses to place anyone above, of you I will quickly take hold, embrace you in my soul, but will never allow you to be the mole cuz I view all as a potential foe. Hold me down with luv and I'll give nothing but luv back, coming at u wit nuthang but str8 respect. A lack to gracefully express, to me you amazingly impress, behind that wall I sheild myself, kept captive, daily dancing with joy, laid back is my way of being festive. In the moonlight I ride with mad pride got my conscious on my side as my lifelong guide. Choices made were choices gave[d], I choose[d] how I choose[d] to behave. I live not by but understand the concept of faith, between you and I friendship will always remain safe. Look in my eyes, shy but live, living as I die, with rhythm to my cry, as the whole world keep asking me why. I have a bad habit but there's no other way that I would rather have it.

Suicidal (1)

Show me the way to love and I'm talking about deeper than the stars above. Back then I asked the Lord to give me a reason and so He blessed me with two seeds to change how I felt about the seasons. My story is buried down to the core of this earth, can't believe when I attempted an exchange of words, alchemy was the term that came to be spoke. Paused in the moment ... now I'm somewhat fulfilled yet broken. As I drove on the pavements above ground, listening to Bone, enjoying the breeze - contemplating my state of mind - I felt elevated, floating towards cloud nine. So at ease, sweet loving Silent Melodies, I felt my spirit rise, divine tears in my eyes, looked up towards the sky to the Most High and told Him to just give me a reason why. Damn, it's time to say good-bye, I'm stronger than man. Ate so much dinner with the Devil still saying in Jesus name. Ya'll just don't understand, I refuse to be Heaven Sent. With the why, I already know how, Krai Kill, putting all fears aside, ready to commit that Suicide.

Train of Thought

Welcome to Train of Thought ... 

www.facebook.com/groups/trainofthought

 post random thoughts, quotes, life events

everything of the 'norm' and what is not of the 'norm'

discussions, critiques, and everything in between 

complement and/or question what is brought to the screen

I have respect to all aspects of the arts so feel free to share

receive and give feedback.

Just keep in mind the name of this group,

"Train of Thought"

which is a succession of connected ideas, a path of reasoning.

Eternal

They wanna know if I'll choose life over death
Come a little bit closer and feel the temperature of my breath
My body move with ease, my eyes reveals nothing but a tease
Try to listen to the rhythm of my heart beat
It sings so mellow
Only time knows what my soul truly hold

They wanna know if I'll choose life over death
Purchase my books, read the stories, when do you get a chance to laugh
This day in age, troubled, although held by faith
Crying out to that voice inside of me
She speaks so gently
Momentum surpass any amount of gold

They wanna know if I'll choose life over death
Considering the circumstances, I think I'll let ya'll do the math
Walking center stage, head held high, shy, for goodness sake - please
Why can't man understand, I can't be defeat
My path is narrow
Straight forward, focus on the road

They wanna know if I'll choose life over death
Pain, failure, tribulations, hold up, these experiences are just only half
In the midst of the storm, I bathe, remaining safe
I consider this just a minor fee
Through my soul I see
Eternal, secretly allowing the truth to be told

They wanna know if I'll choose life over death
Come a little bit closer, and just ask, have I taken my last breath
Purchase my books, read the stories, all I can do is laugh

Boom Boom Boom

Boom-boom-boom

     I paused 'cuz I kept hearing something in this room

Boom-boom-boom 

     I paused 'cuz I know I was the only one in the room

Boom-boom-boom

     No longer pausing- hesitating - now I'm a bit confuse

Boom-boom-boom

     Then I heard a voice say 

     Stop being paranoid- I'm just ur conscious walking along with you 

Boom-boom-boom

"Much Respect"

A.I.T.T.U.M was created as a way to explore possibilities and to express myself in certain ways. It was created to touch base on certain issue and so many other things. It's goal is to attract as many people as possible from different interest groups. AITTUM communication lines is huge allowing the readers to communicate with me directly through a variety of outlets. Although I do not post many things on the page that relates to or are similar in topics and discussions that I participate in through other sites that I affliate with or have, I will attempt to do so in 2012 as well as many other projects.This year was a rough draft for I will be releasing everything I have been working on this year in 2012. Everyone who read this blog knows me or of me base on different means, through different social networks, ecetera. I admit that I was everywhere this year, although I did mention that this year would be dedicated to me dealing with certain issues, ecetera. I displayed and/or touched on some of my interest and I appreciate those who took part in this blog, giving me feedback rather it was directly posted to this site or communicated to me via other means that I have provided. In the beginning of this project I stated that I will recognize certain people along the way who have played some form of role in my life that have influenced me for the better this year rather they done so intentionally or not. 

I want to take time out now to bring forth recognition to a few people who are highly embedded in social networking and are young entreprenuers and will like for you to support them as well.

Shantell "Zues" Wilson ......

a promoter, a chef, a writer , and many more

Want to keep track of what he has to offer as a promoter and more: befriend him on facebook; http://www.twitter.com/zuesoner; like his facebook promotional page: Party Entertainment Group (PEG); checkout his independent business owner: website ACN  if you need personal services for internet, tv, cell phone service, and much more! The one who introduced me to blogger - check him out right here on blogger: Zues World

Karmyne Monet ...........

a writer, a model, an inspiring tv personality, and many more

The social networking industry is her world and she is dedicated and gaining control of it: befriend her on facebook and http://www.twitter.com/LaunaKMonet. She is a writer, a model, and many more and all of that information is now at your disposal to easily find out. Her blog site gives you a very good idea of who she is and what she is/will accomplish so check her out right here on blogger: Creative Minds Don't Think Alike.

Elcie Nelson  ....... 

founder and CEO of LuxuriCare Spa

As a young entreprenuer she has ventured out into the Spa business where she, and her team, not only cater to you at a luxurious spa but is also willing to come to you wherever you may be. Yes, LuxuriCare Spa is mobile. Like the facebook page: LuxuriCare Mobile Spa and befriend it's promotional team on facebook: Living Care-Free.

 Lik Shots .......

emcee, writer, insipring actor, and many more

See what he has to bring to the table as an entertainer who is conquering the industry through the music world as well as through the acting business. Not only is he in the tv series The Lick, Lik Shots has a story to tell and you can go along for the ride by liking his Facebook Page: LIKSHOTS; http://www.twitter.com/likshots; checking out his website; and befriending him on facebook.

Jean Jabril Joseph .....

a writer, a poet, a promoter, and many more

He is the CEO of  FreedomlandGeasss Entertainment and 9Fanged Promotion and you can see what he has to offer as he venture out into the world as a young philosopher, a web designer, let's just say that you don't want to not know him and that can easily be avoided by befriending him on facebook.

To my supporters.... 

I know there are others who are wondering why I did not list them here

This specific list hold a certain meaning to me, each person with an individual 'thing' that helped me deal with and/or become aware of certain things that I so desperately needed .... as well as many other things. Like I stated plenty of time, whether it is intentionally or not, my life is impacted by all forms of interactions, and all those who I interact with I do not take for granted. I send out much respect to the five listed above for reason they themselves do not know and of course I will not yet share. Just to let you all know, I will even list my enemies here and show appreciation because 'everyone' plays an important role in my life. Those that have been listed above fall in the categories of my family, friends, associates, co-workers, business partners, motivators, and many more (5 names, a tone of categories, don't attempt to do the math). But like I stated, I will give recognition to everyone along the way, these five just so happen to be on the top of my list this year for multiple/different rather it be major or minor reasons. Send your support towards them and continue to support me on my journey for I truly appreciate and am grateful for all of you. 

A.I.T.T.U.M. [As I Try To Understand Me]

...... is deeper than the title itself. Understanding oneself is allowing oneself to be themself unlimitedly and to attempt and conquer all thought that can be put into action. AITTUM is dealing with the journey of reaching all set goals even as you gain more on the way, no matter what stands in your way. As I Try To Understand Me is reaching for the stars, gazing into the monlight, overcoming obstacles, reaching your goals, becoming succesful, keeping in mind that you are your own man, this is your life, your dream, time to obtain that destiny. AITTUM is whatever you choose it to be, as long as it hold some form of meaning to you whether it be positive or negative.

December marks the one year set date to me joining blogger
and from this post on AITTUM will be AITTUM .....
let it be known .... I am .... Krai Kill .... "Tha Unknown"

Much Respect

Krai ft/ Einstein (Response)

[Albert Einstein] - " Intellectual growth should commence at birth and cease only at death." / "But to me Death is only when the spirit's no longer bounded to the flesh ... from there more knowledge I will continue to collect ... forever yearning to be learning ... a sensation that exceeds any formation as the Ultimate Novation ... Life has been proclaimed to us all ... made and set forth Eternal ... spoken words from the Soul of Thy Journal ... to breathe it ... suspend it ... apprehended within it ... it's just a Time felt path ... commence to it ... I cherish it ... never cease to proceed pass the Wall of Humanity ...  forever bounded spiritually....  to gain and rise above it all intellectually." - [Krai]

Living in The Shadows (1.1)

k-oz in the air
everyone screams
as she walked - she never dreamt this to be
before she was even able to make that final step
from the sidewalk unto the street
crossing it was the goal that she wanted to meet
he jumped the curb
the impact was intense
in the air she went
amongst the car she slammed
the smell of rubber travelled throughout the air
the screeching sound - man could not bare
he slammed the breaks
she rolled off and landed on the pavement
what more can be said
by-standers came running to the scene
oh my oh my they couldn't believe what their eyes had just seen
a lady withchild
third trimester
how on earth can they have both survive
the neighborhood is at an uproar
phone calls are being made
sirens everywhere
yellow tape
people couldn't bare to watch
at the train track
right around 71st up to be exact
how can he continue on with the thought of what just went down
body bag is being placed
why on earth did she have to go out today
school sign-up for her other child
a mother of three who blossomed within her another seed
now being taken away
no form of vital been displayed
straight to JMH
time to operate
yes
she was pronouced dead

Hear me Shout it

Heavenly United ..... Side by side with the Most High I ride ....

Spiritually Guided .... Swallow my pride as I rise, being taught by the Wise ...

Profoundly Rounded .... Captivating by nature, proclaiming the art of my Savior, retreating to the secrete home of my mental .....

Selectively Ignited.... As I display my ways, always having faith, rerouting the mindplays of those who share my gaze ........

Eternally binded ... Soulfully to Him I give praise, always questioning but of me He has faith, foreva Sai Nai and Krai, continue to lead my day, obstruct the vision of my hatred way, blindfold and mindclog the cause of my evil thought as to You I rejoice with my voice in the most nonsecular manner ....

Infinitely Grounded ...Deep within I continue to sing, I thank You, I praise You, prayer sunt only to You, blissful nights set forth by the Conqueror, the Great Knight ...

Amongst men I ran, by You I stand, Your presence remain in demand and so I seal these thoughts with an honourable Amen.

Pause ....

U hear the rhythm ... U hear the beat .... Now stop interupting and actually listen to the words I speak ....

Who Art Thou

Who art thou to inform I of who I am if I myself cannot determine the outcomes in life for which by I must be sought out? Stand down from this urge to help me reach my goal, for my goals are only known to the ever so tender rhythm of my soul. Shan't I be given the opportunity to live a life in misery, to dance in the rain and be destroyed by the storm? Shan't I be able to look amongst men and be tempted to shout that I've too overcame? T'was nights when my head would be among pillows and tears will drizzle down my cheecks bearing silent whispers of crying screams, for deep within me I believed I was not meant to be. Shan't I be given the opportunity to live a life of destruction, to sit in the mirror years ahead only to bring forth recollection of years that have already fade and with the power that lives beyond my flesh - scream through the top of my lungs that I have been bless. Who art thou to try to protect me from the lessons that I so desperately seek? Allow me to be me, for to me it is the only way to learn that by all means I am in fact a WELL MADE QUEEN ......

ENC 1101

Let's Regroup
original post date

8/26/11

Here’s something to think about

This weeks lesson - - air and are

Why is stair (when talking about using your eyes) is spelled stare

 But when it is pronounced and read <<(red)>>

 it says star   <<<<(st –are)>>>>

Well – that’s at least based on what we know about reading the word ‘are’ and the word ‘air’

When it comes to air and are the same goes for the word bare that sounds like bear which is sad because the word bear really says beer based on the word ‘ear’

if we really just go based on sounding things out

And bare really says bar <<<considering when it is sounded out b-are>>>

And bear is sounded out as bair <<<<considering what we were told it truly spells >>>>

Next week lesson -   -  -ead

Read as in red such as head and dead and lead <<(as in led)>>

Which can be confused by the word read such as bead and lead which is pronounced based on heed and deed

It’s all elementary my dere <<based on mere>>

 or is it deer,

no -

I know for a fact it’s dear

It’s sad because I can go on and on and on – especially for and early childhood educatior.

I have to teach exactly what I believe is so stupid and contradicting yet the challenge and the way in which the mind has learned to transmit it and retain it is an art all of it own and I for one am into all aspects of the arts

What is so great about this is that although it is contradicting and may seem overwhelming and confusing, all of this is mastered by the tender age of six and only freshened up and strengthen no later than the following year. Do not under-estimate the mind of the young. Taught and guided right, they will blow you out of sight.

Love

Let's Regroup
original post date

5/11/11

“The experience of love is the same, what changes are our preferences.” ~ Author Unknown

Love is defined as ...... a deep, tender, ineffable feeling of affection and solicitude toward a person, such as that arising from kinship, recognition of attractive qualities, or a sense of underlying oneness


Is love a concept, feeling or action  .... that's what I was thinking when I first decided to look up the  definition. We tend to use the word very often. I for one do not really go around telling people I love them. When it comes to my feelings towards others, more than likely if they tell me that they love me, I will not repeat it. I may say that I got love 'for' you ... but to say that I love you, there must be some form of overlying issue. We tend to fall in love with characters from a book, we tend to fall in love with music, we tend to say we love what we seen or what we heard. I know when I use the term love .. which ever way it is that I use it ... it is because I feel some sort of connection, not that regualr form of realtionship connection (rather it be romanitic or friendship wise etc). Saying I love you or I got love for you, you must have displayed some sort of bond with me (rather it is known to you or not).

Love is a concept that brings forth certain feelings that may be displayed through ones action.

this is obviously one of the unfinished post ... but you catch the drift .... you tell me ... what is love, when and how do you use it ......

The 'Yo' Conversation

Let's Regroup
original post date

6/14/11

Krai
yo 

J
yo
Krai
whuts good wit u ... and yes... i am and will be writing using slang terminologies
J
Writing and yes... I would suspect anything less.
~ mean wouldn't

Convo (1)

Let's Regroup
original post date

3/27/11

Me:  Death is a bitch...
He:   ....And Eternal life is her pimp
She:  she takes away your dick and runs like fuck
Me:  Time is the drug....
He:   .....overtime is an overdose
He:   Bring em on
Me:  Sleep only exist
He:   Dreams of waking up
Me:   ...........

no matter how it comes....i always dream about waking up.....foreva does it seems like im running out of breath......hear souls around me screaming there's no help......fuck it - Sleep only exist for those who ain't bout shit.....ain't tryn...a put in work, overdose, not on this turf...Time is a drug, tryna pull me into the outerworld.....but imma stand strong, bounded to earth, above it, as my only home....I swear Death is a bitch, creep up on yah, put it on yah....then take away your dick and run like fuck....Life ain't shit till it comes to an end.....existing in realms that been withheld from men...among Angels and Demons who's foreva breathing....i'm foreva dead yet alive...then you realize you got tha best of both world....no way out, foreva alive....been pimped out by Eternal Life.....