Life–Balance–Neutral

One must wake up in the morning and ask themselves what it is that they are to strive for today. Each day we must set out to do better than the day before. We may also recognize that each day have a destiny of its own and so there is no need to try to outdo yesterday since today and yesterday are two completely different days. Where am I going with this? Just sit back, read and I will tell you exactly where I am taking this.

Living in the Shadows (1.2)

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Living in the Shadows (1.1)

Time went by
The months surely fly[ed]
All that could be thought of
Was the blossoming seed that was held captive inside
Of a womb that was almost held as a tomb
The one withchild
Was crushed on one side
As the young queen, towards the opposite wing
Remained and leaned
It was that moment
Nine months in
Lady and Man
Believed it was time for the pregnancy to come to an end
JMH, where all her previous fruits been uproot'd
There they raced
And by doctors was [sunt] away

Take Me As I Am

Why do you refuse to take me as I am

Or is it just me who became lost within this film

I beg to lay my body to rest

Where the souls of the past will upon me caress

I come to you as naked as  the day I was born

My thoughts have been raped, my heart have been torn

Spiritual world, it is now to you I turn

Bathe me in the blood of my own

Cleanse me in the tears that I always shed alone

Harmonious melodies as I drop down to my knees

Begging the Skies to set me free

Took a pledge to resurrect, recalculate my path

Know not if it’s being done correct

To you I order my steps

Taking my last breathe

Bringing upon me death

Living up to the name I select’d

With respect

Cleanse me and make me whole

Before you I release my soul

Forgive me Father for I forgot what I wrote, let alone what I spoke

Broken words from a souljah that’s ready to claim her rebirth

….. here I go

Much Respect to the Most High

Searching (1)



How secrete must my world become

Respectfully I stand alone

Spiritually I remain strong

Guided by the souls that speaks to me within

Take my calmness not for granted

For I'm more than just a simple part of the creation of man .....



Psalm 23



Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I feel no evil for you are with me, your rod and your staff they comfort me
Giving me the opportunity to walk confidently, unto you I cherish thee, although tempted to live through blasphemy, questioning the art of what’s Heavenly
Today I pause to speak to you with no boundaries, so exquisitely
Masonry - as to the structure of my heart..., violently – to the way my life have been walked
Yet still I fought and to you the thoughts are brought
Infinite One, all battles has been put to a halt
Disturbed by the misuse of words, controlled by the politics of other creature’s soul
I must uphold to the stories I once told, I’m on the right road, the path is so cold
Within my dome, I’m processing the feeling of being left alone, what happened to that secrete home
Am I to set aside the way of life I so desperately wish to deny but whom outcome through mad madness I take much pride
How am I to collide and breathe through both sides, when it is what I hate to this date that fuels me - to make me great – I’m stepping on bricks held up due to fate

Habit (1)

I have a habit of being non-expressive. Attitudes displayed is either passive or semi-massive aggressive. I have a cold heart but I'm delicate to those who in my life take part. Quick to fall in love but refuses to place anyone above, of you I will quickly take hold, embrace you in my soul, but will never allow you to be the mole cuz I view all as a potential foe. Hold me down with luv and I'll give nothing but luv back, coming at u wit nuthang but str8 respect. A lack to gracefully express, to me you amazingly impress, behind that wall I sheild myself, kept captive, daily dancing with joy, laid back is my way of being festive. In the moonlight I ride with mad pride got my conscious on my side as my lifelong guide. Choices made were choices gave[d], I choose[d] how I choose[d] to behave. I live not by but understand the concept of faith, between you and I friendship will always remain safe. Look in my eyes, shy but live, living as I die, with rhythm to my cry, as the whole world keep asking me why. I have a bad habit but there's no other way that I would rather have it.

Suicidal (1)

Show me the way to love and I'm talking about deeper than the stars above. Back then I asked the Lord to give me a reason and so He blessed me with two seeds to change how I felt about the seasons. My story is buried down to the core of this earth, can't believe when I attempted an exchange of words, alchemy was the term that came to be spoke. Paused in the moment ... now I'm somewhat fulfilled yet broken. As I drove on the pavements above ground, listening to Bone, enjoying the breeze - contemplating my state of mind - I felt elevated, floating towards cloud nine. So at ease, sweet loving Silent Melodies, I felt my spirit rise, divine tears in my eyes, looked up towards the sky to the Most High and told Him to just give me a reason why. Damn, it's time to say good-bye, I'm stronger than man. Ate so much dinner with the Devil still saying in Jesus name. Ya'll just don't understand, I refuse to be Heaven Sent. With the why, I already know how, Krai Kill, putting all fears aside, ready to commit that Suicide.