~ Random Thoughts !!!!!

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original post date

3/13/11

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many wonders, many pains, as i try to envision the life I dreamt
to finally take a stand, without lending hands
break free from the world.....as it's the sky i'm willing to explore
mind, body, and soul....no longer bound to the earth
this is the step....of a young SOULjahs rebirth

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"My mistakes don't define me They dont dictate where I'm goin They remind me that time keeps tickin let my mind keep clickn never stop thinkn Bein aware of my decisions" ~ T.I.

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never mind the pain nor the sins i gained
only take heed to the voices in me
no longer will I be afraid to combat the emotion of hate
lost my path as tried to fit in with the ways of life
this is not me...I'd rather be a conspiracy
...Question all that can and can't breathe
Fell back by the ways of man...I'm greater than that

Can no longer walk among the living dead....the closed minded heads
No longer will I continue to fade away
I'm as nuetral as i can...welcome the universe with open hand
Believe what i say...from this day ..... foreva and always
...This is Krai....full of rejoice.....I'm pround to say
I've be "Born Again"

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God works in mysterious ways.....the only problem is .... i dont know what exactly he's tryna say......my subconcious aint allowing me to comprehend the play.....i'm getting hit harder everyday.......placed situations in positions that can work for or against me......i need to dig harder...but i'm pissed cause i dont know which way to lead

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I am so exhausted......yet today i accomplished nothig......nothing to be proud of since i covered less grounds.....I'm slipping and i gotta step in line........neva eva in my life time .......has i hit bottom ground.....this shit is history.......yet i will not proclaim it defeat......i thought i was spiritually at ease........then i realize....i was welcoming the 'deviL' deed.....i feed off hate...that may be the case......but lately i drited away ....... cause it has neva been sought out....only gained through fate....so imma step down.....with vengence in my eyes......i know we go head to head ........but this is my "SOULjah Cry".....directed to the Heavenly Father.....the top doG..vice versa..... God.....
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due to the life stuggles...remember to approach things through 'novel'. let is be known that at times shit get hethic. but you will embrace it as the ultmate praise. the balttle within is not to be look upon as sign of a lack of strenght. i... stand before you not yet ready to repent. i am hurt in so many ways yet know not the case. one love, one, strenght, one God....yet i question you to the point of no recal....as i lay my head down to rest. i am please....yet angry....for i have lack to succeed. this ia the battle within me that i am yet to defeat...today i am a mummy and that why i am no longer on my feet..."listen to my cry - sir'...this is "A Cry of a SOULjah" ....directed to the Heavenly Father....and the top doG...vice versa....God

.....Shit.....

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original post date

2/22/11

Shit I did it again.....invite wise.....one i like .....the other i'm wondering why.....don't come at me differently.....and this is sent out to my friends (and I'm not talking 'bout Webster wise)....you know who u are ....cause around you i don't roam or chatter about.. What is a friend...short simple meaning without getting into details....enemies that lies within....lay round for the full blown version ...(Krai Kill mind wise)....was planning on removing the 'vite but fuck it imma continnue to write......whether u like it or not...do me a favor and just fuck off.....hatred is in the air....naw ...just keeping it real and i'm not tryna sent sc'air'.......say what you gotta but fuck that gossiping shit...i love it as i live...i'm me and imma always do me....in defense mode..hell yeah...you just don't know....this was a different kind of introduction to those who just don't know...if you're surprise when you're reading this...more likely...you're the friend (Krai wise)i'm refering to...cause all else would say ...yeah ...i been knew you do you..and don't get it confuse.....if you got sumthing to say...go head and post it.....anger don't quickly come my way....cause only loves one could hurt me in such strong ways....and trust...from me ....luv's not easily spread....if i hold you down conversation wise...then you know we good on the grind....all else...i really don't give a fuck if you fall behind.....once again...it is what it is...now tell me...am i'm wrong for telling you this....shit.....just don't look into it

Please Kill Me

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original post date

2/3/11

© (with no permission to copy or make reference to)

This is the intro/prayer to one of my song/lyrics ....Please Kill Me
"I understand that pain is common in a man - but now my pleading stand - put me back on the land as being nothing but sand - I'm no longer here posted on my legs - instead I'm on my knees you could hear me beg - this is no longer the place for me - so heavenly father - please kill me"

War (pt1)

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original post date

2/19/11

We are who we are
Yet I understand who I fail to become
Under the shining moon the stars and the sun
Foreva and always - I will be one

Why Play (pt.1)

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original post date

2/3/11

Lately I've been playing games with everyone around me as well as this thing here
Avoiding what it is that I am trying to accomplish

So many people get to me, not that many understand
I try to step back but am begging for a lending hand
I feel alone in this world although I could be surrounded by family and friends
I lie to myself, mess with others, just to pretend
At times I want to overcome it but the truth is I can't
See, in a way I like me but am afraid of the part that don't seem sane
I'm alienated from the world, that's suppose to be a problem, but not to me
At times I rather be alone and I don't know why that be

.......... don't look into it

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original post date

1/8/11

I must say that it is funny how one is really flirtatious. Is it wrong to be attractive to someone, flirt away, yet know that you do not have any attention whatsoever to be with that person? What if in the beginning you told the person that you were not interested, then later on start giving signals that make it seems as if you were interested, because in a way you were? Could it be that you're just telling yourself that you are not really interested to protect yourself? What if you just naturally flirt and you do not do it on purpose, does that mean you're wrong because you are playing with that person emotion? What if the person knows, sense it, and play along with it? Huh, we're all guilty of this, knows this, yet we still do it? Why is that?

.......I tend to be random....these two don't fully relate.......

So I see you from time to time, don't know why I allow you to cross my mind
Maybe it's because I know that in a way I love your state of mind
I kinda hate it only because I'm wlling to face it
Caught the urge to say I'm Me- and that's when I realize it was more than what it seemed to be
Comfortable to talk to you - actually willing to let you know me - the true
Don't really like interlocking eyes - but staring into yours just send me through the skies
Put a smile on my face no matter what my state - love looking your way - catching gaze
Be zone in for a minute- then I smile and face down - say you a trip - only because I can't believe what I'm facing inside
Sometimes I can't even look your way - trying to avoid having you run through my head
I know I'm a trip cuz here I am spilling it out
What can I say - I'm attracted to you - but in that sense don't want it to play out
Shit - this some shit - love flirting your way - but friend wise - webster style - we should remain tight
So deeply into you cause of you - but to a different level
Love your presence, it spiritually embodies my soul, your friendship is one thing I don't want to have revoke
Gotta respect that - but gotta keep it true - hey I'm into you - then again - you already knew that too


This is a little touchy touchy, I don't do that sensitive emotional stuff, just wanted ya;ll to see me when I attmpt to do so.  "Don't look into it" is what I always say. And like I said I'm coming at you on a Friendship tip with Much Respect.

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Why am I putting this up ...... for one ... it is my site and I can ..... two ... I just felt like sharing ..... three .... I don't mind ya'll knowing  ..... four .....

So if you've been keeping up with this blog you will have realized that a few post goes up and then goes down, page setting changes from this to that.  To tell you all the truth, I have been playing around with this blog just to see what I can put in and so forth. If you have access to any of my other sites as well as groups that I am affiliated with, you will see that my presence haven't been there and if it is, it's still isn't all there. I am planning on coming at 2012 differently.

November will have a tone of post posted especially for the first 7 days: those that didn't make the cut the first time around and those that kinda went up then down, mainly cause of the underlying darkness that lies behind it. Thoughts that were incompleted will be set forth. See where my mind tend to travel. November will be the release of thoughts at all angels. But like I stated, 2011 was/is just a rough draft, the beginning (introduction) to whatever it is I am doing. Let's see how things go for the remaining of the year. December marks my one year on blogger and January will start something else. I do not know what is in store for next year but I do know that it will be something, so let's regroup ..... stay with me and I appreciate it.